My Crutch

July 22, 2009

I should start by noting that I haven’t written in quite some time. I know that. However, this is my bitch blog, so you should be happy that I really haven’t had a whole lot to bitch about in quite some time. Until yesterday. Yesterday I was told that using the phrase “this is where I store crap” was unprofessional. Ok, yeah, it was in an email to fellow professional people, but I was trying to be funny, and really I could have said “shit”. I mean, I just use swear words a lot. Now, most people might say that these words do not show intelligence and that there are whole dictionaries of words that can be used. I say bullshit. You know what, I like cuss words. They are funny and they are a part of my damn vocabulary. I attribute this mostly to my dad who used these colorful words as fillers in sentences for about every other word when he was talking on the phone to his railroad buddies throughout my formative years. Anyway, it was then that I realized I needed to find a place where my humor would be appreciated, or at the least, more tolerated. This realization put me in an awful mood for the rest of the day. I carried this mood with me to Soda Pop rehearsal where I was never fully able to get into character. I even messed up an entrance. At this point I was really mad at myself. When I got home I decided I would watch some of the DVR’d shows that had been piling up since play practice was now taking all of my time. I chose Kathy Griffin’s My Life on the D List. Well, if you saw the episode you know. However, she played at the Apollo and got kicked off the stage for using inappropriate words. She was told she was not welcome back to the venue anytime in the near future. She then said that swear words were her “crutch”. She used them a lot and to her they were funny. She would continue to use them like it or not. I began thinking. You know, this lady has been banned from places, been directly booed off stages, and offended many, yet she stays true to her swear words. Now, I may have been reprimanded, but I have never been fired or banned from a place due to my language…YET. Anyway, it’s good to know that there are people out there like me who are also crippled as she put it. Perhaps I need to become a comedian.